Going Forward


And when YHWH  your Elohim brings you into the land He swore to your fathers, to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, that He would give you—a land with great and splendid cities that you did not build, with houses full of every good thing with which you did not fill them, with wells that you did not dig, and with vineyards and olive groves that you did not plant—and when you eat and are satisfied, be careful not to forget YHWH  who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery. Duet. 6:10-12

This is the scripture given to my back in the High Desert about our new adventure to N Idaho. Little did I know, this is a passage that is still to come to fruition as we faithfully wait what is ahead of us  Life’s journey’s don’t need to be full of disappointments that steal our joy.  It is a choice of ours to allow it to make us into better humans and closer to the heart of The Father. I am desiring to arrive to my destiny, even thru the hiccups of life.

As I continue……

Its been a while since my last blog post over a year ago. Much has been going on with my Tribe and TONS of exciting news to share. I hope you will enjoy this read as I catch you all up to speed.

Here we go!!!

After 15 years of owing a home in the High Desert of Southern California and 9 months of solo parenting, (my husband had a job out of state), we packed what we had, sold most of our belongings, (including our goats and chickens, which we miss dearly) and made the journey to Northern Idaho.  It has been a dream of ours to begin a life of homesteading, owning land and self-sufficiency. We learned much while we resided in the High Desert  about gardening, raising animals, preparing for the days ahead, community, Co-Op and so much more and I was confident that we could apply all those experiences to our new life. Well, that all changed in a split second when we landed foot in Idaho



After 9 months of being on my own with our 5 children, we had encountered some of life’s “hiccups” along the way.  As our caravan landed in Boise, (including our livestock dog, Serun and our bunny Jicama) to fuel up gas for our vehicles,  our realtor called my husband saying the buyer had just pulled out….WHAT??!!!  We were in Idaho!! We where beside ourselves and immediately got on our knees asking The Creator for HELP!!! We trusted what was left of our frayed instincts, and decided to continue heading North.  Beyond exhausted and now with the emotional side of “Where do we go?, I took a few deep breathes and prayed. I was numb to all my surroundings, yet I knew My Father has a plan and a glorious one in the works. We were all so very tired with all the traveling that my physical body just couldn’t go any further.  I was having physical symptoms but I trusted in my husbands reassurance that all would be well. We knew we couldn’t go back to CA. Driving forward was our only option.


We finally got to our destination and stayed at a home in exchange for replacing some trim that needed to be stained and nailed around the doors and floorboards in the house. It was a great trade for our family in need. Knowing we were able to stay for 2 months, gave us a little comfort. At least it seemed.

When disappointed sets in, one has to fight to make sure it doesn’t steal your joy. There have been many times in this journey that my joy seemed to be stolen from me with one disappointed after another. Outside of not getting into a permanent homestead (still to this day), and our house going back and forth on the market – one mountain after another, it seemed. Our livestock dog, Serun, had to be spayed in an emergency surgery that almost cost her her life.

When Serun was given to us by a friend, our part was to work with the Gampr community in breeding her. We had it all set up back in CA to breed her with another male, yet the timing wasn’t right.  When we landed in Idaho, she went into heat and the timing was, well, not the best. We did find a male for her and all seem to go well. The owner of male was confident she was pregnant and we took her back to the house we were staying at.

A week or so later, Serun started to bleed, and didn’t look good. We took her to the vet that day, and the next day to get an ultrasound and more tests. It was confirmed that she was not pregnant and that her uterus was infected and swollen with pus (Pyometra is the medical term.) The vet strongly suggested emergency surgery to remove her uterus and the infection. We said yes. The vet told me later it was a miracle she made it thru. I am so thankful she survived. I have to be honest, though, I was really hoping to see her with pups. She would have had a beautiful litter. A different road traveled for her and I.  Hoping to one day start over again with a new  pup.

It was only to be a “one time temporary dwelling” yet when the house fell thru, we where in need of settling somewhere.

After the house we fixed up, we have moved 5 times in 6 months. That’s A LOT of moving for a family of 7.  There is so much more details I could share with you all, I could probably write a book. We are temporary dwellers as we call it.  Our Creator knew we needed His provisions and  provided homes for us to stay in, one after another.  He has never skipped a beat  Although it sure felt like it especially not knowing where the next place was going to be.  It has been a hard season to be honest. Much of my dreams and ideas are on hold, for now.  Our family needs to just breathe in what is in front of us and allow the joy of life to keep us content.  Learning to be thankful in the midst of change is a life lesson.  Gratefulness is an attribute one can learn to adopt when the rug is pulled from underneath you.  That running warm water is sure a blessing when it has been stripped.

With winter quickly approaching, we knew we had to find a permanent place to live. The days seems to quicken as we looked day in and day out to find a place.  All the homes we stayed at where short term, so each day felt as though I was on the edge of it being the last.  I had to learn to rest and trust in The Creator and no be shaken. It is hard to do that, ya’ll. I knew He would never leave me or forsake me. I made time to pray and I struggled. Yet I trusted; He knew best.

We finally landed, in (hopefully last) rental place this October.

We are happy to finally have our feet on the ground, enjoying first this winter wonderland as a family.  Absolutely beautiful!  This place is still a temporary dwelling, yet it is home for a bit.  Choosing once again to be thankful and grateful our family is safe and sound.

This move sure did rock our boat of all the expectation I had before we set foot, yet I am learning the art of embracing seasons and letting go of expectations not yet arrived. I choose to walk by faith and not by sight. Life has turns and twists, and I know the road can seem long and dreary.  I am thankful I am not alone in my journeys of life  and I have someone who will carry me when I am unable to walk.

Thank you for letting me share here today.  I hope you will continue to be part of our Healing Throughout journey as we now are in Northern Idaho. The community here is sweet and we have be truly blessed and welcomed with open arms.


Mama Shalom


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